Persephone Returns from the Land of the Dead

I smell blooms opening in my wake before

I can see them I squint

peeking from between splayed fingers sun

rendering them red transparent for a moment blood

visible beneath

skin the flesh just flesh again not

girl not goddess

(my name was once maiden) just meat

kneeling down to pick a flower fist

wrapped tight around

the stem a violent pull then it is no longer of the earth

petal by petal I rip it apart shove

a ruby handful into my aching

mouth how I ate of the

land of the dead now I eat of the land of the living

to make the sunshine last

just a moment longer maybe not the spring itself not

physical warmth but the way it makes me feel

embraced held I choke them down

to be loved by a god is to be divine

it is still

not enough never enough never enough

emptiness tells me to be loved half a year feels like the same

thing as being loved with half a heart even if it

is not I know I know I am loved

I am still forcing down flowers chewing and

dreaming that this is finally how to

make myself feel whole

Jazlyn Jacobs is a Jewish-American poet, an Evergreen State College alumni, and was a member of the 2013 Spokane National Poetry slam team. She is currently working on a poetry collection to self-publish.

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