Bloglander

So, when I first thought to write this it was originally going to be in the
Cheers. Telling you how much I missed you, express regret, express my love
and tell you how much I'm gonna miss the little things, like how you do
that weird shake when you get cold in a restaurant, how you do that weird
thing with your jaw when you don't know what else to say, how much I'll
miss your head on my chest and blah blah blah. But that was last week.
Funny how one meeting with you and a conversation with somebody else that
knows you well changed all that! Instead, I'll tell what 'Im not going to
miss. I won't miss your lies, which I have discovered you did the entire
time I knew you! You told me I was your first?! That isn't even close to
the truth! I won't miss you hanging up on me regularly. I won't miss your
temper tantrums. I won't miss you always calling the shots. Yeah I know
I've acted crazy, but I loved you! With all my heart! But you lied, you
used me! You are the most selfish, conceited person that I know! Yet
somehow I will always still love you....but you lost me! Amongst your other
lies that I have recently discovered, you got around! And somebody told me
all about you before I was in the picture! I want my 5 months back! I want
Christmas back! Best thing that ever happened to you? That is what you
said. Selfish little liar. I would have treated you like royalty. But you
blew it. I loved you so much that I shielded you from the fact that I have
cancer. Found out around Christmas. Did you really say the other night that
everybody at your job wanted you? Haha! Trust me when I say this: They all
know about you! And then you sat across from me and lied to my face about
why you wanted that number! I moving on...and I do mean moving on! Have a
great XC season next year my beautiful little liar, and break a leg! No- I
mean it - break a leg!